Friday, July 15, 2011

My ex boyfriend told me the reasons he broke up with me?

He says he broke up with me because well I am 25 years of age (went back to college because the school I worked for had to let me go due to cut backs) my parents just recently lost the house we bought seven years ago due to the fact that the mortgage they had gotten on it was those mortgages called arm I believe. Anyways they had to move out to VA to find jobs since they couldn't seem to catch a break here in CA. When I left to VA back in February my ex went to say goodbye to me he was crying and telling me he would go out to visit me and that he loved me, i asked him how come he always told me ugly things he said that when he gets mad he talks out of his behind. Once I was there (VA) I felt like I couldn't live without him so I decided to borrow money for a flight to come back and I am now staying with my auntie who is also my Godmother. When I returned he told me a different story saying he only cried because he thought it was like putting an end to his past plus he just got out the Navy so supposedly he was feeling bad. On Wednesday he finally decided to make contact with me again we were talking cool until he told me he was seeing someone, I fought to keep my tears back but we were talking on skype so he could tell that news hurt me. Today I called him but he was already acting super weird telling me that the person he said he was talking to is in fact his girlfriend that he met on CRAIGSLIST!!! ugh it hurt me because he has (in the past) cheated on me on craigslist personals. He also told me how he was sick of always having to pay for me when we went out, the thing is that he always offered he knows I can't afford much right now since they took some hours from me at work due to cut backs. He said in so many words that I'm poor and that this new girl is already working on her masters and how much better and cooler than me she is, that his family loves her too. I just feel very discouraged I do not understand how after all the cheating and bad things he put me through he still has the audacity of treating me like an enemy. I never cheated on him but he says he would have preferred me cheating that me blowing his phone up and pretty much keeping him on check, apparently that was devastating to him and I left him jaded? How is he the victim. If anyone thinks he has the reason please tell me because I don't see it I waited for him during his time to Afghanistan I spent restless night talking staying up on the phone with him, praying for his safe return back home just so he can be back and treat me like a sub-human. I feel very discouraged and extremely sad, I try to get past this but I feel such a huge hole in my heart I can't focus. I need advice since I am too embarrassed to tell all this to my friends or family.

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